A Thank You Note For YOU
Assalamulaikum,
On the 30th of March 2018, I was finally called to the Bar.
It still feels surreal for me. I remember how excited Yaa was when we both were accepted to Asasi Undang-undang, AT THE SAME PLACE SOME MORE. I remember Nies taking pics with the prize we won (nasyid competition) I remember how diligently Efa would iron her clothes, picked out her attire, every night until the last day of degree. I remember the night I matched dress with Dils (Bawang Putih & Bawang Merah) and we were laughing maniacally, with no care in the world at all 🤣 Definitely still remember Scha's gorgeous wedding gown.
On the 30th of March 2018, I was finally called to the Bar.
It still feels surreal for me. I remember how excited Yaa was when we both were accepted to Asasi Undang-undang, AT THE SAME PLACE SOME MORE. I remember Nies taking pics with the prize we won (nasyid competition) I remember how diligently Efa would iron her clothes, picked out her attire, every night until the last day of degree. I remember the night I matched dress with Dils (Bawang Putih & Bawang Merah) and we were laughing maniacally, with no care in the world at all 🤣 Definitely still remember Scha's gorgeous wedding gown.
I also remember I cried my heart out when my tire went flat and I had not a single cent in my purse, and that I had no idea how to solve it and when I get home (that I thought was empty), Umi & Atiqah were there and they helped me. Umi and I, we rode her motorcycle in the rain and went to the shop. Tiqa helped pay first before Abah banked in money. I remember how I cried feeling grateful for them both.
And I remember how my heart was torn to pieces when everybody was falling apart.
I remember how Juju would always bebel at me when I don’t eat properly, but rather drank coffee day & night just because I was too layzay to find food lol. I remember how Leeen would be beyond happy when I bring her food on the weekends I went back home, and we would membawang kat bawah flat hahaha
I remember being disappointed when I don't get As or even Bs. I remember reading through books and journals just to finish the FYP 🤣 I remember I went to the library alone just to get away from the world, read some interesting novels and literature books and just spends hours and hours sitting at the corner immersed in the books. mostly non-law and of course, fictional. hahaha.
I remember the days we shot our videos for third languages. I remember the days we would crammed in one car just to go to watch movies together. I remember that night when we were so scared of the unknown, and we were all get exhausted afterwards. I remember we went to buka puasa at the padang. I remember going home late late late because I did rehearsal for theatre-play. I remember crying alone on the bed thinking how to finish my script.
I remember how nervous I was starting my pupillage. I remember I met Ninis the first time. I remember the smile Tiii gave me whenever she sees me. I remember getting scolded at because I was blurr all the time. I remember crying for feeling not good enough, for hating my job. I remember how I almost gave up but people keep pulling me back.
I remember the night I cursed people so bad I cried for hours. I remember I cursed people more the next day for the thing I had to do to cover people's asses. I remember speaking all kind of profanities to Yaa and FAI that day because I was so angry and tired for the lack of sleep. I remember FAI fetch me that evening and I cried the whole ride and then we went to eat pizza lol and lepak tepi jalan kat Putrajaya looking at buildings, talking about life I think.
I remember being disappointed when I don't get As or even Bs. I remember reading through books and journals just to finish the FYP 🤣 I remember I went to the library alone just to get away from the world, read some interesting novels and literature books and just spends hours and hours sitting at the corner immersed in the books. mostly non-law and of course, fictional. hahaha.
I remember the days we shot our videos for third languages. I remember the days we would crammed in one car just to go to watch movies together. I remember that night when we were so scared of the unknown, and we were all get exhausted afterwards. I remember we went to buka puasa at the padang. I remember going home late late late because I did rehearsal for theatre-play. I remember crying alone on the bed thinking how to finish my script.
I remember how nervous I was starting my pupillage. I remember I met Ninis the first time. I remember the smile Tiii gave me whenever she sees me. I remember getting scolded at because I was blurr all the time. I remember crying for feeling not good enough, for hating my job. I remember how I almost gave up but people keep pulling me back.
I remember the night I cursed people so bad I cried for hours. I remember I cursed people more the next day for the thing I had to do to cover people's asses. I remember speaking all kind of profanities to Yaa and FAI that day because I was so angry and tired for the lack of sleep. I remember FAI fetch me that evening and I cried the whole ride and then we went to eat pizza lol and lepak tepi jalan kat Putrajaya looking at buildings, talking about life I think.
I remember everyone who helped me through everything. And I also remember everyone who was not so kind. I remember witnessing how people can be so muka talam bertalam-talam.
I still don't believe that I'm finally done with everything; from asasi to chambering. All that's left now is to practice.
I'll be very-very-very honest. I actually don't think I can do it. I actually feel that I'm not qualified for this, despite everything everyone is saying. But I will do this. Not because I don't know anything else, well, that's true also but heh I can learn, right? Anyways, I will do this because of you. Yes. Every single one of you who came and stayed, or came and went. I know people said you should do things because of you, not others, but in my case, no I cannot. Too many people has put their hopes in me, and well, I am that girl that will try the hardest to fulfill your hopes. Especially Abah's.
Happiness for me is when I get to see smiles from people I care for. This sounds like fake, but I'm not lying. I am happy when I see you smile. That alone is enough for me (I might demand other things too but that's another story :P ).
All I need now more than ever is support.
I still don't believe that I'm finally done with everything; from asasi to chambering. All that's left now is to practice.
I'll be very-very-very honest. I actually don't think I can do it. I actually feel that I'm not qualified for this, despite everything everyone is saying. But I will do this. Not because I don't know anything else, well, that's true also but heh I can learn, right? Anyways, I will do this because of you. Yes. Every single one of you who came and stayed, or came and went. I know people said you should do things because of you, not others, but in my case, no I cannot. Too many people has put their hopes in me, and well, I am that girl that will try the hardest to fulfill your hopes. Especially Abah's.
Happiness for me is when I get to see smiles from people I care for. This sounds like fake, but I'm not lying. I am happy when I see you smile. That alone is enough for me (I might demand other things too but that's another story :P ).
All I need now more than ever is support.
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